Five days until surgery

Today I think I had a small sort of panic/anxiety attack. This happens once in a while. I don't like to admit my defeat when worrying takes over and I can't seem to stop. I know God is in control and I put my trust in Him fully, or do I? Sometimes my human flesh comes through too much and the emotions can be overwhelming! I really do know He is in control and no matter what we will get through what ever comes our way. But sometimes my mind won't hear of it, my heart and soul is on board, but not my mind. I believe Satan tries to distract us from the truth. The evil one tries to put blinders on my eyes and turn them away from what I know to be true. The truth is God is with me and He will see me through whatever ever trial I'm am facing. So thankful for His grace.

I'm not sure why this upcoming surgery has hit me so hard. Maybe it's because Daniel hasn't had surgery in over 2 years? It could be this is a new surgeon for us, not our doctor of 13 years working on Daniel this time. Daniel has undergone about 100 surgeries in his 13 years. You would think I'd be use to it by now. I sometimes think we have been blessed so many times, so why do we deserve another one? The fact is I don't deserve it, but that's not going to stop me from praying for it! I am going to pray that Daniel comes through this surgery and back home with us safe and sound. I'm praying he will have more comfort than before the surgery and can start to want to play and explore his surroundings just as before without so many drugs to keep him pain free. Please join me if you would to pray for the same. I will update while we are in the hospital. The surgery is Friday, July 29th at 8am. Thank you.